Well another day has gone by and it was a great one! I slept in, well what I consider sleeping in lol. I didn’t wake up til 8am! I also slept through the entire night! Yay for small victories 🙂
I started the day off with yoga, so far I am sticking to it. I still find it insanely hard but hopefully by the end of the 30 days I’ll be getting a little better at it, I figure I can’t get much worse at least! After yoga I went for a 5km walk, it was cold but beautiful. As much as I hate the winter there are still days that I can appreciate the beauty of it.
Normally I would never go for a “walk”. No, that wouldn’t be enough, I would push myself to run. I am trying to go about things a little differently right now. No keto, no counting macros, no jumping back into the gym, no half marathons… What’s the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results? That’s been me for the past few years. Instead of aiming for perfection on every front I am just trying to learn to love myself as I am and focus on doing things for my health, both mental and physical. I know I need to lose 30lbs BUT I figure if I make small changes over time it will be much easier to stick with and I can keep my sobriety as my main focus because at this moment that’s what is most important.
I had a good chat with an amazing friend who I met the first time I decided I needed to address my drinking habits. He has over 20 years of sobriety and is such an inspiration, a very nonjudgmental and kind person and one of those people I was talking about yesterday when I talked about my fear of never having fun again, he seems to have lots of fun so he gives me hope. I asked him if I could text him Thursday night if I am feeling panicky while OH and my friend have their pre-concert drinks. I have visions of having to lock myself in the bathroom at some point in the evening and send out either an emergency SOS or a mini rant… Either way he said I could so that helped ease my mind. Knowing I have someone to text that will “get it” calms me somehow. I have some wonderful other online friends who I met through the amazing One Year No Beer group that I have been a member of for about a year and a half. They are also absolutely friggin amazing but since most are in about a 4 hour time change they will more likely be in bed by the time I may be having a mini melt down lol. It’s funny, I have never met any of the people in this wonderful small group chat I am lucky enough to be part of but they are my people, they get me, they don’t judge, they listen, and they are probably some of the best people I know, even though I have only ever talked to them online. Technology is pretty cool in some ways!
Well the kiddos are gone up to bed and hubby is up getting ready for work so with that I think I will sign off and head to bed, tomorrow is going to be busy, 12 hour work day and then I will have to pack for the concert.. yay…. hahaha. Good night world 🙂