The Journey Begins

Well this is my first blog post ever so I am kind of figuring this out as I go! So, let’s see… I decided to start this blog as a way of documenting the changes that I hope are going to take place with me, I figured I would share it because I am sure I am not the only person who feels this way. I decided a week ago today that I was tired of being stuck on the hamster wheel I had created for myself which went something like this… look forward to the weekend so I could “relax” by drinking wine, drink the wine (a lot of weekends involved too much wine), wait for the anxiety to hit Monday, feel miserable and hopeless for a couple of days then back to work, forget how miserable I felt by Friday/Saturday and look forward to my beloved wine to “relax” again and round and round I go! This wasn’t always the case, I rarely drank at all in my teens/20’s and it was even more rare for me to drink more than a few drinks, I hated being drunk, I couldn’t handle losing control. I can’t say why this changed but at some point over the past few years it did. I don’t consider myself an alcoholic but I know I have developed some very unhealthy habits and coping strategies and it’s time for this to change. I did an alcohol free stint for 8 months about a year and a half ago and I felt better than I had in years, this time around I am also going to focus on cutting sugar and carbs and adding in some fitness related goals. I made it through the first week, no alcohol, didn’t stray from my ketogenic diet (even during SuperBowl, woohoo!), went for my run yesterday and finally got brave enough to go hit the weights at the gym! I must say, I am kind of proud of myself, it’s also amazing to be feeling good on a Monday! I am 36 years old, a wife, mommy to two amazing kiddos and a hairstylist. I want and need more energy to keep up with life but I also need to learn to be kinder to myself and learn how to relax in a healthy way… I am most definitely I work in progress but I know I can do this and I will. I look forward to sharing my journey with whoever wants to read about it and especially with people who are feeling the same way. If we don’t like our situation we have the power to change it, time for this girl to make some changes 😉

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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